Bottled Up Inside

This week has been amazing :) I was so happy to come home and get an extra day to spend with my family and friends.

On Thursday night, Michaela and I went to the Socorro County Fair and Rodeo, which took all of 20 minutes to walk through. It was still a blast though :) We got to watch part of a goat show which was pretty interesting (especially with Michaela explaining exactly what the judge was looking at and what was supposed to be happening) and then we went to pet some horses :) I am such a country girl at heart :) Anybody know of a good place to go riding that wouldn't cost a fortune?

After the Fair and Rodeo, Michaela and I went to El Camino and had an extremely unhealthy dinner but it was delicious and so much fun :) I am so happy that I switched roommates. This year is looking promising now! :) Here are some pictures of our new room :) It's starting to feel like a second home, which is nice.

 

And now I get to think... Is mechanical engineering right for me or should I switch to Math or Physics? :p I guess we'll wait and see how this year goes and then decide.

And finally, I got to come home :) I have had such an amazing weekend with Caleb and my family :) I got to spend some quality time with the Mangums, have dinner with my family, and have some very deep conversations with people. I also got to see my good friend, Tina, who I missed soooo much! :) I love you, Tina! :)

Now the Serious Question

Is it good to let emotions fill inside you? What if the emotion is fear?

This weekend has not only been fun but it has been pretty eye-opening as well. I have had a lot of time to sit and think about some stuff that is going on in my life and I realized that a lot of my sadness and stress is from fear...

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to live in fear of him but, at the same time, I feel that if I let my guard down something bad could happen. Maybe it's best to just let it go and pretend like this little incident never took place. Wow, that would be way easier said than done! :(

What do y'all think? Should I let go and move on? Should I keep it in the back of my mind? Should I just breathe for a moment and calm down? Should I...?

I'll leave you with that question... Let me know what y'all think :)

Goodnight all! :)

<3

Ali :)